Recent Ruminations

I figured I'd write a bit, while I'm waiting to drive with the pastor to take a brother to work. He has to be to work about 30-minutes away, at 2am. With him being without a vehicle right now, he's been using the pastor's truck. So the pastor was taking him to work (he works offshore). But I didn't want him to drive that late/early for that long by himself, so I'm going with him to keep him company

I am definitely full of thought lately and especially right now as I wait. After I do this I'm going to spend some good time in prayer

But I'm especially thinking about the ministry and my job situation again. I haven't had a paying job since I left my manager's position February of last year. It's not that I can't get a job, but rather God's Will is my life. The area I live is economically booming and job opportunities everywhere. However, I learned very quickly after leaving my other job that I must wait on God for something else. And God has told me no right now. Which is fine, I'm not poor and I'm not struggling or anything. God has taken care of me and I've had my finances taken care of, and I know He'll continue to care for me.

I just at times feel as though not having a steady income like that, I don't know, you hear the lies of the devil trying to make you feel discouraged at times. Easy to rebuke though, but still he does attack.

But mostly on my thoughts, is the ministry. I was talking with the pastor today as we were riding around town getting some things done and he had mentioned some things that really got me thinking. Mostly about how busy I am with the things at church and how if I had a job I'd be in serious trouble trying to get everything done. Then the other day I was thinking and talking with God, and I thought about what it'd be like when God calls me full time in the ministry. Then I thought, You know, right now it's pretty much that I AM in full time ministry. I'm just not having a salary or anything, but my time is fully working in God's Ministry. Hmm . . . Just made me think for a bit.

I'm still not sure when God will have me working in a position of being a licensed and ordained minister and doing the things He showed me. But that's not really important, because it's never about what I am or will be doing. My focus is that in whatever I do, I do it for God. Whether I clean the toilets at church, or I preach the sermon, so long as GOD is the focus and not the actual work being the focus.

But the thought of being a licensed and ordained minister is a little strange. I've never really sought to be one, honestly. I just do what God wants me to do, that's it.

Ah so many things keeping my thoughts . . . Don't you sometimes wonder about the full plan of God for your life? All the little details about what He'd doing to do or has planned for you? The when's, the why's, and the how's?

Of course . . . if we knew all the details we'd probably get ourselves in trouble lol Too much for our own good, eh?

Well, I will chat with all of you again soon! God bless you all so much! I've still more to say, but I need to pray and I'll have another blog sometime soon!