Wow

Well, perhaps a week ago I realized a few things I think I lost sight of a few years ago. It was what God had called me to do.

Very long story short, when God opened my eyes and I told Him that I wanted HIM to control my life. I was giving it all to Him. He asked me something odd "Are you sure?" and I told Him, "Yes." Several more times He asked me this, and I said Yes, and He warned me it wouldn't be an easy thing, nor an easy life. I told Him I understand, and so it began.

Well most know of the troubles I went though with not just family but the people in my area and all that. How it got bad and I would as a kid, pray for death every night.

Fast forward and God revealed to me that He would have me teach Christians in the Body of Christ. But the sleeping ones. The ones who are spiritually asleep. He wanted me to wake them up and get them moving again and so forth. I was a little disappointed because I was wanting something like being a Missionary or something. But God changed my heart about all that.

Then after a while God reminded me of just what was in the whole deal of "waking" up those "sleeping Christians." Those are the backsliders . . . the rebellious! They are the rebellious who put on a Christian mask and say they aren't rebellious at all, even making themselves believe it at times.

Wow . . . recently God reminded me of this. . . I half-joke with God saying why couldn't I teach the easy ones, the ones willing to learn and do what they've been told!? And He reminds me what He told me that first day. Heh, all this time I figured the most trouble I'd get was from the outside, those who would come against me because of my belief in Christ, like when I grew up. But I can see a big part of trouble coming from the rebellious.

It's a lot easier dealing with the atheists, pagans, witches, and so forth . . . oh but the rebellious children of God.

I feel like Ezekiel . . .

But, you know, it's a bit easier for me to use what I know of God's Word to convince the unbelieving. But only the Holy Spirit can give the right words that would strike at and break through the hard hearts of the rebellious. Out of my hands and fully God.

Oh, Pray for me. What a challenge indeed!