Oh, Audie,

I am so sorry to hear of the problems you are having, especially concerning this.
I will continue to pray, as already said, this is of the devil himself and by no means God.
I, as you probably know already, do share in what you are feeling, and can understand. You may feel that God is still picking on you or that He is letting you go through what you feel you can't handle, but you can handle it, brother. Keep pressing on. God isn't picking on you though, but rather Satan knows those things that will keep you down, and Satan knows that which will hurt you the most and he will definitely use those things. Like digging his claws into wounds that haven't completely healed, and pouring salt on those wounds still open. But it isn't God, brother. And I know you know that, but ask why our Lord would let this happen and let you go through it.
Brother, please do me a favour and think of Job, read the book of Job. It has helped me to realize that problems like these, happen seemingly for no reason at all, as if God has indeed done wrong to us, but then we realize that it is Satan wanting to try to get us to curse God, and yet God is still holding the leash on Satan so that Satan can only go so far and do us only so much harm. Yet God does let us go through these things, because Satan says we can't handle it and will curse God, yet God says that we are His Children and will endure. It's our time to prove that devil wrong!
Times like these are definitely times that we can prove to the devil that he is wrong and we will not fall under his persecution . . . and it is also a time for us to grow stronger as well.
A verse that has helped me and perhaps will help you too, is Jeremiah 12:5-6 "
If thou hast run with the footmen, and they have wearied thee, then how canst thou contend with horses? and if in the land of peace, wherein thou trustedst, they wearied thee, then how wilt thou do in the swelling of Jordan? For even thy brethren, and the house of thy father, even they have dealt treacherously with thee; yea, they have called a multitude after thee: believe them not, though they speak fair words unto thee."
Brother, the Lord told me when He gave me those verses the first time in my life, is that there are fierce storms ahead of me in my life. So therefore I have to learn how to walk and not get weary, and to live in times of peace, and not become weary and tired.
Yet then, as the "storms" came in my life, and He told me the same thing, I told Him point blank, "Lord, why? I've already learned to walk and be in times of peace without becoming tired, why is this happening now? Why are you asking me to run 'with horses' and still not be tired? This isn't fair, why do I have to keep learning more? Haven't I been through enough?" and His reply was "These are bad storms in your life. Learn how to not become tired in them, because even fiercer storms are going to be in your life later on." Of course then I would ask how much worse could things get. But the Lord is preparing us.
Audie, you've learned already how to walk and not become tired, now just as God told me, learn how to run and not be tired because there may very well be a day when you need to run even faster, and then have every obstacle possible trying to push you backward--and we'll still have to keep our running pace.

I will continue to pray for you, brother, and I hope that I've been of some help, and that you do get the chance to read this. Take care, brother, and I hope to hear from you again soon!